I just gotta vent DAMMIT

Okay okay okay....
Im just gonna type whatever comes to my head...

I am in the WORST mood ever...and I havent felt like this in a long time...

I dont even know why Im upset anymore!!!

Its crazy..just one thought can FUCK up my whole and i mean WHOLE evening...
OMG OMG OMG!!

maybe im dumb...but i feel that it is perfectly fine for people to throw tantrums every once in a while...

Wheather its yelling and snapping on people or if its simply crying and listening to music until you fall asleep...

Its a part of the cycle of life...
..at least thats how I feel about it!!!
(feeling better already)

But for every fit you throw, you should have someone there to tell you "its okay get back up and keep it movin.."..
Now if that someone is you....you are VERY VERY mature...

But for the people that havent quite made it there yet...
You may need some reinforcement...like a best friend or a mother...or a significant other...

Okay now that that is off my chest, i can talk about my story and MY life...

Okay I am 20 years old...
Dont have my license...
Dont have my car...

My plans for this summer is to get both of these things..

But for some reason right now I am terribly discouraged....

I wanna talk to someone...but all the people I depend on to talk to me either tell me the same stuff I have been hearing forever (your time will come, Christian, just be patient/ stope being so negative/ just keep saving your money).... or they will say if you are gonna complain about it, just change it..but change takes time..and I am BEYOND tired of waiting...i just wish i could convey it in words about how tired i am about the phase of life that i am in...and i dont know how to handle it...all i can do is pray....

Now if you havent noticed by now..its not only about the car...but if i get into everything..you will be reading for..only GOD knows when...
I know I shouldnt be so negative, but when you have been positive for so long....you start to lose hope...

ya know...

Well i guess im done..
and i already know that i left a lot of things open...but venting isnt really supposed to be grammatically correct and complete..

Until later days...

-C